A Little Health Update That’s Freaking Me Out

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I’ve just got home from the doctor’s and am curled up on the sofa with a cup of tea and an old episode of How I Met Your Mother (which tbh the more I have on as background noise the more I sort of maybe kind of like it…).

I’ve just pulled off my jeans and boo thang gold loafers and replaced them with floral pyjama bottoms and a new pair of bright pink birthday slippers.

And sitting in front of me is a little prescription.

A little prescription that fills me with as much anxiety and sadness and fear as it does excitement and hope.

Y’see, I’ve been sitting on a wee secret these past few weeks – and nope, it’s not pregnancy so you can close those Zara Baby tabs you’ve just opened – in fact, it’s in the complete other direction.

I, my sweet darling internet pals, am going back on the pill.

No, you’re freaking out.

I’ve made no secret on this blog that I’m not a big fan of The Pill. I mean, I love what it stands for – lots of sex and no unplanned pregnancies –ย  but for me the reality meant a heck of a lot of mood swings, and the older I got, and the more heinous Daily Mail articles I read (soz not soz), the more I felt like it wasn’t for me.

I was freaked out about the unknown long-term effects and the idea of putting unnecessary hormones and laboratory manufactured things into my body without really needing to (says the girl who drinks cans of Diet Coke like it’s a magical potion that’ll turn me into Margot Robbie).

It’s been *approximately* two years and three months since I threw away my last pill packet and started my voyage into an unknown territory.

I’ve had period pain for the first time in my life (although nothing a hot water bottle and packet of Ibuprofen can’t hold my hand through), I’ve had periods just as regular as before, although my cycle went from 28 days to 30 days WOAH HOLD ON BODY STOP DOING KER-AZY THINGS, and my skin – well my skin has erupted.

It started as a spattering of spots on my chin. Nothing I couldn’t deal with so long as I y’know cleansed, and took actual care of my skin. But over time the spots have grown in force, like an army desperate to claim my face as their new kingdom.

When I had my OSKIA facial a couple of months back, the beauty therapist asked me about the ‘rash’ on my chin. And man, I wish it was just on my chin, now it’s spreading into my cheeks and oh god I am so thankful 7 layers of foundation can make you look mildly cute in an outfit photo or selfie.

And so, back at the start of September, I made the call. I made the appointment.

I actually cried afterwards. This is not a joke. I cried.

I cried because I felt like I was taking a step backwards in life. Evolution says hey hun you’re 27 where’s your baby. My body says hey hun you’re 27 where’s your baby. And I’m like hey world, I’m 27 and going back on the pill.

I felt like whilst I was succeeding in other areas of my life, I was falling back in the one area it sometimes feels is the most important area.

And even today as the nurse was going through the booklet with me about all my side effects and how the pill works (I had a really nice nurse btw who didn’t judge me or act like I was super crazy and reckless for not already being a slave to the pill), and she was telling me about how my body won’t release an egg every month, I felt sadness.

That was my over-riding emotion.

Sadness.

I’m not ready for a baby. We’re not ready for a baby. And it’s OK to not quite be there yet, but at the same time it feels like there’s a monster hidden in my brain who tells me the opposite. Call it some sort of vulgar body clock or something, but I tell you what, it can absolutely do one.

It tuts at me and judges me and points at its watch and tells me to get a move on, tells me I’m falling behind.

So here I am, sitting with a little box of pills in a prescription bag from Boots in front of me because it felt like my only option. I tried other prescription medicines last year and nothing touched the acne growing angrier by the day.

And so, I’ve been prescribed an unknown pill, one that I’ve never tried before. It’s supposed to be good for skin. So I’m excited that maybe one day in the not too distant future, my skin might go back to it’s glowy glory days of Sixth Form, but also apprehensive that WHAT IF I TURN INTO A PSYCHO BITCH AND CHRIS DOESN’T WANT TO BE WITH ME.

So yeah, watch this space. I’ll keep you updated and give you a head’s up if I suddenly spout an extra arm or something…

  • Faye

    Sending you good vibes Hannah! Xx

  • You should be proud for making the choice that’s right for you at the moment, and remember that if that idea of a baby gets stronger you’re always less than a month away from being able to stop the pill! I went onto Yasmin a while ago for my skin and it has been the best ever. Even though I’m scared for what happens to my skin when I come off it, having that opportunity for things to stabilise a bit has meant I’ve been able to read up on how to help my body transition off the pill, and have started taking probiotics and a vitamin B complex pill every day because apparently that helps your hormones level out or something, so when I am ready to come off I can be prepared! xx

    • G

      I really recommend probiotics and also cutting out dairy – notoriously bad for skin!!!!

      • Yes I have tried cutting out dairy and replacing with almond milk. What I’ve found is that one off bits of dairy are a-ok for me e.g. cheese on pizza but if I have a latte every day my skin goes rapidly downhill. So I try for the most part to stick to no dairy but don’t beat myself up about a splash of milk in my tea and the odd pizza, but similarly cheese sandwiches for lunch and a morning latte everyday would be awful for me! xx

  • Ooh chica, it is definitely not a step backwards! I felt the same way when I went back on the pill after they said I miiiggght have PCOS, I kinda felt like I was covering up the fact I have a wee problem rather than dealing with it properly. I have been on the pill for over 5 years now and I feel like it may not be that good for my bodaay (except the fact that it makes my boobs around 3 cups bigger, YAAAS), my pill seems to work ok for me at the moment, but I am thinking of other options… Maaaybs the coil. Ah being a lady is a joy, ain’t it? Immy x

    http://www.immymay.com

  • So tricky having to decide what to choose for contraception. Especially as none of them are perfect! But hey, hopefully this pill will work wonders for you and won’t affect your mood but will calm the chin army! I am personally on the Mirena coil because of my family history with oestrogen I can only have localised progesterone as a contraceptive – and the coil only releases a teeeeeny amount compared to the progesterone only pill. Plus I’m not sure I’d trust myself remembering every single day, and the coil lasts 5 years without having to think about it! ๐Ÿ™‚ Still, whilst each contraceptive works for some people, it doesn’t for others, but until you try, you don’t know. I think it’s such a positive thing to discuss contraception more openly, so thank you! Alice xx

    http://www.woodenwindowsills.co.uk

  • I’ve been on the pill now since I was 15 (I’m 24) and I personally have never had any problems with it. I prescribed Yasmin ‘cos I get really bad breakouts and tbh I’ve never looked back. Good luck with the pill, I hope it’s smooth sailing for ya.

  • Sending hugs your way – I know how difficult these decisions can be! xxx

    Laura // Middle of Adventure

  • I also got back on the pill about a month ago, after being off it for years. It’s rough but at the same time it’s peace of mind and helps hormones balance themselves out.

    Sending you all the good vibes! We got this. xx

    Srna

    http://www.acrushonlife.com

  • Oh I can totally understand why you’re terrified. I went back on the pill after 2 years without it last september (also because of skin problems) and have been freaking out ever since. It actually didn’t help much with my skin issues by the way – the only thing that really helped me was cutting out dairy products from my diet as the hormones inside them kinda tricked my body. Weird weird!

    I do hope going back on the pill will solve your skin problem – I know how awful one can feel when the skin doesn’t do what you want. And if not, hey – you can always stop again ๐Ÿ˜‰

    Love, kerstin
    http://www.missgetaway.com/

  • Molly

    There’s nothing wrong with the pill, it sounds like it could solve several problems for you.
    Don’t panic, embrace it ๐Ÿ™‚

  • I’m not surprised it is freaking you out because it brings all the scary life decisions (like when to have kids) to the front of your mind but you are doing the best thing for you at this moment, which is the most important thing at any time.

    If you don’t get on with the pill, then maybe consider something like the Mirena coil? I had to get one fitted (it’s my consultant’s preferred treatment for endometriosis) and apart from the appointment where I got it it fitted, it has been amazing. I was on the pill in my late teens & early 20s and I just couldn’t deal with the side effects so I was really worried that the Mirena would be the same but it has been a JOY in comparison. No horrendous spots, no weight gain, and thankfully, no more debilitating period pain. I know there is a lot of contradictory anecdotal evidence out there about the Mirena and it doesn’t work for everyone, but its something to consider.

  • Lia

    Completely appreciate that it is a difficult choice but I don’t think it’s fair to say things like “being a slave to the pill.” There are many types of the Pill which unfortunately don’t work very well for a lot of people and it can take a LONG time before finding the right balance for your body.. It’s a process which is not ideal and can be really awful, of course. I really hope this latest one works for you and your body.

    Try not to see this as a negative or a step back. I completely understand your concerns around having a child, but it’s not ideal to phrase going back on the pill as a bad choice. Lately there has been a lot of media pressure surrounding the Pill, wellness and being ‘natural’ and I think it’s actually verging on being dangerous for young women. I hate the idea of girls not going on the pill because so-and-so YouTuber is coming off it because of a bad experience with one or two types.

    Anyway, there are so many variants of the Pill that work so well for so many people. It is a wonder drug. It sucks not finding the right one for you, it can be a tiresome process, but that doesn’t mean it is a bad drug. And there are, of course, risks with taking every single medicine out there. Paracetamol isn’t free of risk. Nothing is!

    Sorry, I don’t want to be super negative and this is more of a general point! I just don’t think it’s fair to paint this out to be a dangerous drug, or a bad decision for you to go back on it. You are making a positive choice about your body and I really hope your skin concerns are eased by this latest type. And I know it’s hard, but try not to feel guilty about where you think you should be in your life.. 27 may have been past the ‘prime’ child rearing age a few decades ago but women are realising that they can take more time to be bad-ass in their life and career before having children in their mid-thirties. Don’t sweat it! Keep doing you.

  • Emilia

    I can totally sympathise with you on this one! I have been on dianette (which is only prescribed for skin) for around 4 years, I came off briefly and had the worst acne of my life!! Now back on it and it works amazingly although I still feel annoyed I need tablets to control spotty skin at 24!

  • Amy

    It’s good that you’re making the right decision for you – I think the first couple of weeks are the hardest hormone-wise (my friend has just switched pills and her mood was all over the place until it settled down after two weeks), your body just needs to adjust to it and then you’ll be able to tell whether it’s the right thing for you or not – contraception is so tricky, good luck!
    Amy xx
    http://www.callmeamy.co.uk

  • It is absolutely okay to go back on the pill, don’t let it make you feel like there is anything wrong with you! Our bodies go through seasons of change and this is just one of those for you. I’ve been off the pill for a year now, for the same reasons as you (although with no intention of getting preggos, hah!) and am strongly considering going back on because my mood swings without it have been… atrocious. My poor bf thinks I’m loosing it once a month. So don’t worry, it happens. And 27 is so damn young anyways!

    Danielle @ afloat on a full sea

  • Ugh, I’ve been on the pill for the past 7 years as part of my hormone replacement therapy, and this year has seen me constantly breaking out on the sides of my chins and it gets worse when it’s the time of the month, and at times it reaches the cheeks. Nothing has changed with my hormones in the past few years, the only thing that has really changed is that I keep changing something in my skincare routine every month or so. I keep getting told its hormones but it doesn’t make sense. But after reading your description about your acne, I think it may be the case. It SUCKS! However, if this means my body doesn’t need the medication anymore because it’s creating its own hormones, the better for me!

    I think I need to make an appointment with my gynecologist.

    Stephii Mattea xx

  • Good for you – you do what is right for you, not what ‘society’ thinks you should be doing, or your pesky body clock for that matter. I had to stop listening to mine around 27 (with no partner on the horizon), and now at 35 and just married I am finally ready to listen to it that now might be a good time. Maybe.
    Hope it helps with your skin, and hang on in there through the first month! x

  • I feel your pain gurl, I wanted to come off the pill so bad but I faint and throw up and all sorts when I’m on my period, so shit! I’ve tried a few but the only one thats ever worked for me is yasmin! Sending you love and good vibes!

    Shiana xx
    http://www.shianajarvis.com

  • Amy

    Hi Hannah!

    I totally know how it feels to come of the pill and have your skin, periods and emotions go completely crazy! It happened to me 3 years ago and it ended up being the reason I started up my blog dedicated to clearing acne naturally! If you ever need any tips to balance out your hormones and keep your skin looking it’s best while you’re on the pill then just give me a shout! ๐Ÿ˜‰

    http://www.skyntherapyblog.com

    Lots of love and hugs,
    Amy xx

  • missg

    Aw Hannah bless your heart. Hugs to you. I can completely relate to the not being ready thing and feeling that you have to do the baby thing. I’m older than you and partner and I are not ready either. You will have a fab life regardless of whatever happens and Chris is a good ‘un so don’t fret. Guess I’m just trying to shout out yo everyone not to feel pressured and remembering the beauty of staying on todays page xxx

  • I came off the pill two months ago to see if they were causing my migraines. Which the doctors said they didn’t. Turns out they did. But I’ve become a hormonal biscuit-eating wreck and my boyfriend won’t come near me in case I get pregnant. I’m 32. I’m feeling the baby fear but i/we are deffo not ready for that crazy adventure. We already have a cat… Steady on!
    I can’t remember the point now …. But I hope you get on okay xx

  • Sally

    These sort of posts really annoy me. Some people are on this for medical reasons. Fertility issues or something equally as distressing. You don’t have anything wrong with you, you’re just going on the pill like a billion other women.

    It reminds me of your PCOS posts, you know when there was actually nothing wrong with you but you still went on and on about maybe not being able to have kids. What about people, like me, who actually DO have it and don’t have the luxury of saying “oh wrong diagnosis!”

    Not trying to be a troll or cause offence, just think you need to give a thought to the sensitivity of these posts.

  • I just came off my combined pill because it was making me feel so ill, like all the time I can’t even explain! However, I decided I’d go on the progesterone only pill and see how my body liked it. Annddd I’ve had a much better experience with it the past four weeks, I couldn’t recommend it enough! Much better than my last one!

    Lucy | Forever September

  • Alex

    Stop being so baby-obsessed, it’s ridiculous. You aren’t a special snowflake for being on birth control, many people are at 27. Why are brits so preoccupied with reproducing? Go get a job and see how busy you are and maybe you will be less obsessed with procreation.

    • Lynn

      She has a job.

      • Dani

        Fucking hell. You cried because you went back on the pill? And then decided to blog about it like you’re some kind of martyr for going back on it..massive claps all round.

        Get a fucking grip, you are a GROWN WOMAN. You’re fucking pathetic. Your lucky lucky boyfriend who has to put up with your self absorbed petulance.

      • Alex

        She buys unflattering shit clothes from asos and takes pictures of them. And writes about hand wash. Just because it pays money does not make it a legitimate career, you sassy little dreamy hun.

  • Anna

    What a self centered blog post about something that is really not much of a big deal. Why don’t you try writing about something besides yourself sometime?

    • Maybe you should stop being a fud Anna.?That would be lovely.

      Hannah while I wasn’t totally positive with my response it must be quite upsetting a. Feeling self conscious about something and b. Having to deal with such unpleasant people.

      I do feel like I was a it harsh (and regret it a bit in light of the actual mean comments) I don’t think it was self indulgent. I actually like these life update posts.

  • Jane

    I wish, wish, wish people would lay off these “the pill is awful” comments.

    The mass majority of women have ZERO issues with the pill. It’s a life save for sufferers of endo etc. not to mention it’s a huge step towards prevent millions of unwanted pregnancies.

    It’s a really dangerous message that bloggers/youtubers seem to think is “cool” to push – that the pill is dangerous and messes you up.

    A more dangerous message is to make girls feel wrong or ashamed for taking it, like this post does. Would we all be prescribed it if it was this toxic hormonal nightmare of a medicine? NO.

    I love your blog Hannah, and genuinely look forward to each post, but maybe just think twice with the messaging here.

    • I actually agree. I work in the pharmaceutical industry and drugs are tested rigorously before they reach patients. So it feels pretty insulting to have somebody with limited scientific background tell her wider audience that the pill is dangerous because of scare stories in the Daily Mail. (I know its not your intention but there are so many restrictions in the industry). The pill is NOT dangerous and awful. Most women are fine once they get one that suits their own personal balance of hormones/weight etc.

      The pill basically caused a feminist revolution on its own in some respects; women have so much more choice when it comes to contraception. Its let women progress in fields they wouldn’t have otherwise had opportunity to because of childcare demands because they have a choice of when they have children.

      I really do hope your skin gets better and you feel happier overall taking the pill – its not going to be a permanent thing and I do hope you get to have children when the time comes. Also I understand the trepidation when the last pills might not have worked as you liked.

      Likewise, I do enjoy your posts, this one just irked me slightly.

      • Lynn

        No medicine is 100% safe, but we do know that the pill significantly increases the risk of blood clots, strokes, and certain types of cancer. So much so that this information is written on the PIL. There are also many other subtle and less deadly side effects. These are very real, but are often dismissed. I just got my MSc, so also have a science background, and I simply do not believe the pill is the great medicine it’s made out to be. After all, I canโ€™t think of any other time where people are prescribed a medicine when they don’t actually have a disease. Fertility is not a medical condition. Instead, medicine is supposed to be based on an analysis of the risks and benefits.

        Sadly, we live in quite the messed up society that brainwashes girls and women into thinking that an unwanted pregnancy would be the worst thing to possibly happen to them. Given that the UK is a fairly egalitarian society, this is simply not true. Unlike say the US, there is plenty of support for single mothers in the UK, and an unplanned pregnancy does not mean the end of one’s career and life. Sadly, a stroke can indeed end both.

        Furthermore, the idea of a woman being chastised for not being on the pill or some other form of hormonal contraception just illuminates how extreme the views on hormonal contraception have become. Why on earth would a woman take a prescription with known severe side effects if she didnโ€™t have to? I know the argument will be that these side effects are rare, but this view is pretty typical of the pharmaceutical industry. Why should those who have experienced ADRs and side effects be seen as collateral damage?

        As for the pill setting women free, it has to an extent but some theorists postulate that the pill just created a two wage society which has its own problems.

        That being said, at least Hannah is a fully grown woman. I was prescribed the pill as a โ€œtreatmentโ€ for painful periods when I was only a child of 16. Twenty years later, I still have problems related to being put on this medicine so young. Furthermore, if the doctor would have actually looked for a root cause, she would have found PCOS and autoimmune hypothyroidism. Both of these are successfully controlled now, as they could easily have been then. If doctors viewed the pill as a sometimes necessary contraception then I believe we would be okay. Instead, many doctors hand it out like itโ€™s simply a packet of Smarties, and use it for practically every ill. There are less risky treatments out there for everything from acne to period pains, but women are rarely offered such options.

  • Sending you lots of love Hannah, even though I still have hormonal probs I would hate to go on medication again, so I get that this feels huge. You have definitely not stepped backwards <3

    Lauren x
    Britton Loves | Lifestyle Beauty Wellbeing

  • Alex

    Well you obviously do think the world is going to explode because you’re now taking birth control. You’d think that if your world centred around yourself. And you’d think that if you get your new sources from the Daily Mail. What accurate reporting.

    You’re so vacuous and self centred. It’s actually ridiculous. You are angling it like everyone else who’s taking the pill is making some big grave error and your world is about to collapse because you’re about to do the same.

    Get your head out of your arse. It’s not the end of the world. It is beyond pathetic that you cried. It’s even more pathetic that you shared it. It’s most of all pathetic that you’re pretending like this negative press isn’t getting to you…because it must be.

    Your blogging style is tired. I don’t really know why you smile that smug bullshit pursed lip shit like you’re cute. You’re not. Also stop wearing culottes, they do not flatter you.

    • What a vile, vile response!

      The only reason I can see that you posted this is because you’re deeply unhappy with yourself.

      If you don’t have anything nice to say, DON’T SAY ANYTHING AT ALL!

      It’s Hannah’s choice what she does with her body, she’s sharing HER opinions on HER blog because she’s entitled to, she isn’t advising anyone on what to do with their life jus sharing her story.

    • What a cow.

    • What the fuck?

  • Chloe

    I entirely understand where you’re coming from.
    I’m amazed at the amount of negative comments on this post, evidently people have forgotten what a blog is, a weblog of your life! The wonderful thing about each of these posts is that they’re real to you (barring the sponsored content), they’re how you’re feeling in that moment, for better or worse. Keep posting these , this is your blog, and subsequently your life with your views, etc. I think the above commenters should remember that we all just have our own voice, and your blog is just another opinion, something to read, and something to ponder, whether they agree with you (and your opinion) or not . Keeping doing you!

  • Hannah

    Hi Hannah,

    Just a quick one to say your blog is where I go on my tea break – you’re funny, relatable and make me smile. It’s one of the only blogs I read regularly, so wanted to say thanks!

    I’ve been reading for ages but it’s the first time commenting; I don’t tend to comment on stuff online. In the case of the pretty needy troll you seem to have picked up recently…. hope you’re shaking it the fuck off. ๐Ÿ˜‰ It’s all getting a bit awks on their front.

    I kind of get where you’re coming from on this one- I don’t like being on the pill at all. Tried a load of different ones and finally just came off it altogether at 20. Pill seems to work great for some people, but I just feel weird and out of control when I’m on it. Plus I feel like if I’m going on the pill to help with x, y or z thing, I really need to find a solution that isn’t the pill- I wouldn’t be on it forever so then I’d still have to deal with those things when I stopped taking it. Like, with my skin, I discovered over time that stuff like bread, pasta, rice etc make it break out. When I eat more towards fish, meat, veg, a little fruit, it’s so much better. Having a lot of caffeine and sugar are also a no, which sucks, because coffee and cake (preferably coffee cake) are my ultimate comfort thing ๐Ÿ™ Boo, hiss, etc. Either way, hope pill helps calm your skin down for the moment.

    Enjoy your day!

    H

    • Excellent point on the troll front, it’s all very weird! And also YES to the food point as well, when I last came off the pill I was just eating and drinking whatever I wanted, next time I will be paying more attention to trying to eat low GI and little dairy as that seems to work for me. But as you say I guess we are all different and have to find what works for us xx

  • Girl I know the feeling! I turned 26 the other day and had a mini freak out, but at the end of the day; you do you boo! <3 My past work colleagues were having kids at 40/42 and were AMAZING mums so whilst yes, as women our body clocks are *slightly against us, it's no reason to rush! It's such a big decision and we all need to be ready (well as ready as we can be anyway!).

    Much love,
    Hayley xo
    http://www.frockmeimfamous.com

  • Lizzie

    I too have a background in Medical Research but I’m not offended by this post. Despite understanding the need and importance for certain drugs for certain people, I am not a huge fan of putting chemicals/ extra hormones in my body either. Its a personal choice and if you think women are so weak that we read one blog and immediately take it as gospel, then its you that has the problem. The pill has been proven to have many terrible side effects for SOME women. It has also proven to be incredibly beneficial and life saving for others, this is a personal opinion and a valid one.

    I am sure there is a very sad, very lonely person sitting at a laptop disguising themselves as many different people in an attempt to make Hannah feel terrible because they are jealous of her success. The fact that Hannah isnt responding is fantastic it shows that she has way more important/ fun things to do than get upset over a few words.

    You are only 27 Hannah, you have so much time left to do whatever it is you want to do. Your decisions about your life, your health, your clothes, EVERYTHING are yours to make and yours alone (although I’d recommend throwing Chris an opinion or too every now and again!! ๐Ÿ˜‰ ) You are a beautiful and funny woman.

    I am a 30yr old woman and I read every one of your posts. I find them to be refreshing and funny and they remind me that we all go through the same stuff at the end of the day.

    Throw your opinions out there, wear those amazing clothes and build on your incredible success but above all, do things that make you happy because you are a very talented woman.

    Keep being you.

    xx

    • Lynn

      Amen to every word of this post!

  • Oh mate this sucks! But I totally get it… my skin is a fucking joke, sometimes I get to the point where I don’t even want to leave the house. A lady in New Look the other day started spouting things that would help my skin and I’m like CHEERS FOR POINTING IT OUT RANDOM STRANGER (I almost burst into tears walking back to the office!)

    I was put on dianet (not sure if that’s the spelling) and it cleared my skin up SO MUCH it was literally like a miracle BUT I got migraines while I was on it and they made me stop immediately cause you could have a stoke and die – fun!

    So they put me on the mini pill instead (cerelle) and my skin has hated me ever since!

    I hope this works out for you though!!! Sending skin glowing vibes your way xx

  • Gosh. So much hate ‘blogging isn’t a real job’, ‘how self-centered are you’ type comments.
    It’s her blog, and she can write what she chooses?

  • Sophie

    Hi Hannah,

    I like your blog posts a lot but I have to agree with some (definitely not all) of the points made above. I think if you are going to write posts like this where you are pushing a view on a topic which is as wide ranging and contentious as the pill, you owe it to your reader base (which is probably both young and impressionable) to also include caveats. For example, the pill is a great choice for many, for many it’s not even a choice e.g people with endo etc. I know this is a blog post not a editorial but i’m sure you have a lot of young readers who will be going through a time in their life where they will be starting to have sex and (hopefully) considering different contraceptive options and you owe it to them to at least heavily caveat that this is one persons opinion.

    Also, it’s a bit personally offensive to see you classing yourself as a failure because at 27 you haven’t had a baby but that’s beside the point

    Hopefully you can see this side of the argument and perhaps consider deleting the post

    • I’m pretty sure it’s obvious that this is one persons opinion..since it’s her own personal blog. She doesn’t have to delete a post because it doesn’t quite sit right with you.

  • Molly

    The pill totally sorted my skin out and I’ve never looked back. Confidence is such an important part of life, so think of that as being the bigger factor rather than being on meds.

    You would never know from your insta pics that you would battle with acne.

    I read your blog and follow your social media that I feel like I’m talking to a pal!

    WELL DONE YOU ARE DOING LIFE VERY VERY WELL!!

  • I don’t know what pill you’re going on but if it’s Dianette 100% don’t do it. I got put on it to improve my skin, it did a little bit but not enough, and when I came off it my skin literally erupted, spots all over the top half of my body (no joke, my back and chest are still covered in scars) and I had to go on Roaccutane to get rid of them. Obviously everyone reacts differently but I just know that they’re way too slap happy about putting people on Dianette for their skin.

  • Sending you all the good vibes!

    http://www.justbeingbrooklyn.com

  • I’m so glad I read this, because I’m going through the exact same thing and I’ve been so upset about it. Can you please do an update in a few months? I know you’ve written about PCOS before (or have I got that wrong?) – does that have anything to do with it?

    Hope you don’t mind me sharing my story. I came off the pill when I moved to Dubai because no reg sex and everything was fine for the first few months then suddenly I got horrific acne all over my chin and jawline. After a few months I went for tests and they were ‘suggestive of PCOS’. I’ve gone back on the pill (Marvelon – never heard of it) and I’m one month in. Acne still here but I figure it’ll take a few months to balance my hormones and clear? Anyway, I suspect the pill actually caused my PCOS but I’ll do anything to fix my skin so it was my only option. Tried antibiotics and that bleach-like cream and they didn’t work.

    I’ve got my fingers crossed for us both! xx

  • I just found your blog and I love it! I love all of your flatlay photos! I just started a blog myself but I’m having a really hard time finding the right background/angles for my photos! I’ve been going through so many of your posts and I love all the pictures!

    Nicole
    http://www.ccnichymon.com

  • I was on Dianette for many years and it kept my skin crystal clear. I never suffered any side effects whilst on it – it was literally a magic pill for me. Back in April my doctor pretty much point blank refused to continue my prescription due to the heightened risk of DVT Dianette carries. Although I know my health is what’s important, the thought of being off Dianette terrified me.

    I was switched to Yasmin, which is pretty good at keeping my skin clear (not as good as Dianette – I still get a few spots, although nothing like the outbreaks I get when I’m pill-free). Unfortunately, my mood swings are horrendous. One minute I’m carefree and the next I’m sobbing uncontrollably. I know I need to come off it but I just can’t stand the thought of my acne coming back.

    I wish you all the luck with your new pill and hope it works as well for you as Dianette worked for me! xx

  • This is literally me all over!! With 2 years of gynae issues behind me, and being told I am not a good candidate for egg donating because my hormones are fucked, I am thinking about heading towards the pill route again. I have been off contraception for 2 years now, trying to be ‘natural’ and get my cycle back to a lovely routine, and now I wanna add extra hormones into the mix and I just keep telling myself it will fuck my body up again, I am so so scared and doesn’t help my GP is clueless to it all, so where I really want to make a informative decision, I am not so sure I can yet. Enough rambling, I hope the pill works out for you, and if so it gives me hope that my choice will help me out too!


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