Why Does It Feel Like There’s Something Missing From My Life?

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Since leaving London and full-time employment last summer, I feel like I’ve spent a lot of time trying to adjust, trying to work out how to get the perfect balance in life.

I can work as little or as much as I want – depending I guess on how exhausted I fancy being and how desperate I am to go on holidays and buy champagne and shop in Topshop (mildly desperate).

But for me, the scariest and most overwhelming thing about my ‘new’ life has been all the time I’ve spent on my own. Often I think the fact I have SO much time to focus on myself is a bad thing, it makes me overthink – and a lot of that overthinking isn’t about fun things like blog post ideas and what to have for dinner, it’s about how to be happy, am I happy, am I anxious, what should I be worrying about, am I worrying enough, do people like me, blahdy blahdy blah.

And I’ve come to a bit of a conclusion – that as happy and content as I am right now, because I am happy and content, happy and content on a level that I’ve never known before – there’s something missing.

Remember that thing that got shared aaaages ago on Facebook where there was a jar, and if you fill it with big stones (which represent your job, your health, your family) then your life and jar is full. But then you can add smaller stones, which represent things like hobbies and friends and holidays, and even smaller grains of sand for the even littler things – and it makes the jar even more full. The moral of the story being that if you worry too much over the little things and they take over your life then you’ll never make room for the big stones, which are the foundations to life.

I feel like I have my big stones sorted, but there’s still room for more, like… fulfilment. Does that make sense?

I don’t want to sound greedy by asking for more than my health and my happiness, but I feel like things haven’t quite slotted into place in the exact perfect way, I feel like I could push myself more, that there is something else.

As I’m writing this post I’m wondering if it even makes any sense, sozzles.

When you work 40 hours a week in an office, add a few hours of overtime in, and then another few hours for commuting, then you add a social life and the odd gym class, you’re exhausted. You are done in, you are constantly looking for tiny slots in your schedule to get more sleep, to get more YOU time, but for me it’s the opposite. I need more things to occupy me, keep my brain busy.

Sure, there are weeks, like last week, where actually I didn’t have enough time to get stuff done, I felt a bit up and down and all over the place. But in general, with the point I am in life right now, there’s something missing. There is, in general, time and energy for something else.

Do I want to expland my blog and make it into more of a website with more than one post a day and maybe have more writers? Do I want to do something nice like work in a cat shelter? Do I want to spend more time travelling about to see my friends, because let’s be honest, my social life in Ipswich is err, pretty slow? Or do I secretly want like a baby or summin? I can’t believe I just wrote that. I feel a bit sick and flustered. Maybe I should lie down. Or drink wine and listen to Ed Sheeran in a dark room.

Or is this just the freelance life? The blogging life? It’s not even necessarily that I have bags of spare time to throw away, otherwise I’d have already bought the Sims 4 because HELLO EXCITING VIRTUAL LIFE, it’s that maybe my life lacks variety, it needs more human interaction.

Spending so much time at home on my own is a constant battle. Mostly because it’s stupidly lonely. I struggle with motivation. If I start the day with a friendly burst of Netflix on the sofa, then I struggle to pick myself up into working mode for the rest of the day.

Take today, the day I’m writing this on for example. It got to 3pm before I sat down at my desk. I was ironing, I was watching Grey’s Anatomy, I was buying petrol, I was rolling about on the sofa refreshing Instagram.

Don’t think for one minute I’d have my life any other way. Being self-employed means I never get the fear anymore, not ever. Do you know how poetically amazing life is without the fear of 7am alarms and meetings and bosses? It’s insane. It’s everything. It’s without a doubt the way forward.

And living with Chris? It’s my absolute favourite. It beats my moss-green carpeted Leytonstone flat every day of the week. But I can’t put my finger on what I need, what will complete my already pretty perfect package. And it’s that, that’s slowly driving me a little bit bloody mental.

  • L

    Hi Hannah,

    Love your blog to bits and if I’m wrong then just completely ignore this comment!

    I’ve seen a few of your posts which touch on this issue, where you are content and happy but you either feel like something’s missing or want to achieve more. I can’t help thinking that your lack of proper routine might be the reason you’re feeling so alone and all that time to think is never good. I’m currently unemployed which I know is totally different but it’s lead me to have some real real down points lately. So much so that I’ve thought if I ever got the chance to work from home, unless I had kids to get up and out of the house and other ‘mummy’ friends to meet for coffee at lunch, I just don’t think it would be for me.

    I am a fellow deep thinker and before I became unemployed I was so happy I didn’t have time to think otherwise but since being out of work I’ve had soo much time to analyse every aspect of my life that I’ve picked it apart and I’ve ended up scaring myself about the future questioning what I’m doing/going to do. I’ve become distant from everyone I know and I just can’t help but think if I was in a secure, busy routine things would go back to how they were.

    Again, it may be completely different for you and you’re so lucky to be able to do what you love for a living but if you feel like you have too much time alone why not set aside a few hours a day to work in the library or somewhere for a change of scenery then you know you’re always getting out of the house for a significant amount of time a day and you may even meet other people

  • Lovely post Hannah,

    I have freelanced in the past and can feel you here, you definitely have more time to think about your own ‘self’ and wellbeing a lot more, but that’s not a bad thing.
    On the other hand, working in a cat shelter sounds like bliss!

    F x

    joieandthevivre.com

  • I actually feel the same right right about now. My life is so good, but I just feel so…restless all the time. Like I need to get up and do something more, but I honestly have no clue what. However, I think this phase will pass and things will sort themselves out naturally. Keep your chin up! 🙂

    ExploresMore.com

  • amy

    I think this is just adulthood. As soon as I left uni I became self employed, it was too much work for me and I didn’t have any time to myself. I now have an ordinary job and have lots of time to myself. I think there is a stage in your 20s when you need to spend time alone and (cheesy as it sounds) discover yourself.

  • I know exactly how you feel! I started this year thinking “great job (tick), lovely boyfriend (tick), fun social life (tick)” but it still felt like I could be doing MORE. I’ve been going to a jewellery class and learning some new crafty things which has made me feel like there’s a bit more going on! And I’ve met some lovely new people 🙂

  • I know the struggle. My boyfriend is a freelance photographer and he gets these periods where he is missing a routine and feels like he needs the 9-5 job again. But he quickly realises how thankful he is that he gets to do what he loves every single day. You just need a burst of reality and something to focus on for a little while- remind yourself why you went freelance to start with!!

    Hope things ease

  • I feel this conundrum; I want to move out of London for a more simple life and more room etc but on the flip side I’m terrified of less money, less friends etc.

    K.

  • I agree with what someone else said. I think it’s just adulthood in general that can make you feel this way. I think it’s the transition from being what people expect you to be to who you truly are and what you really want, not what society says you should have..omg this sounds so spiritual and crappy and bleugh lol I’ma shut up now. Great post though Hannah, as always! xx

    http://www.kirstytalks.co.uk

  • I felt EXACTLY like this when I quit my job to pursue my blog and accompanying design business. Like, exactly this down to a T.
    For me I found I needed a little side project to occupy that time. As I am currently living in Frankfurt I decided to take up English teaching as a very small freelance thing once or twice a week and since then I’ve been much happier. It gets me out of the house, socialising with new people and breaks up my day of writing for the blog, online publications and designing.

    I’ve found a pretty good balance now, here’s hoping you find yours too :). It will come!

    • I’ve heard a few people mention this actually. Someone recently was saying that they got a part time job in a lcoal coffee shop (like 8h a week or something), and just from that it got them out of the house, back into some semblance of a routine AND it made them sooo much more appreciative of their freelance stuff 🙂

      Maybe something like that would help Hannah?

      I think it’s partly and adulthood, partly a perfectionist thing as well though. I’m the same! I always think I could be doing more and better. That there’s something else I could be aiming for, or that would make things more “perfect”.

      What actually helped me a lot (especially when I first got out of uni and was REALLY struggling with this) was meditation. Half an hour every evening to just chill out cross-legegd on my bed, candle burning and focusing on being present. It really helps! 🙂 there’s even an app nowadays I think, which can walk you through visualisations ‘n stuff.

      Hope you feel more positive soon sweet! xx

      Little Miss Katy | UK Lifestyle Blog

      • SO MANY GRAMMAR ERRORS. So ashamed.

      • Yes! The side job of teaching (probably works out to be about 5 hours or so a week, maybe 8 including lesson prep) has helped me appreciate those days where I get to spend all day inside writing, or outside exploring and taking pictures, creating my own content and getting to apply myself to things I really love.

        I’ll also give a +1 to this being general adulthood and perfectionist feelings!

        P.s. I checked out my own grammar and it wasn’t too fantastic as it goes, so maybe I rubbed off on you ;).

  • I feel like in life we are always just striving for more, we want to do more and achieve more but when do we actually stop and feel like we have fulfilled that part of us. When have we achieved everything we wanted to set out and achieve? Even then I feel like we wont be content. Its so hard to balance feeling fulfilled through work and then through life, I don’t think the two go hand in hand, I think you need to focus on your friends and your family and yourself as well as your career, its just so bloody hard.
    Sophie x

  • I can definitely relate to this post- I’m on a gap year at the moment so although my situation is slightly different, I know how you feel in terms of missing something, and also spending so much time alone. Without a proper structure to the day it’s definitely difficult to get motivated, but I try my best! I hope you find the thing you’re lacking!
    Hannah x
    Hanniemc.co.uk

  • I relate to this so much. I relate to the title, let alone the entire post. I am in a major that I loathe, currently, and although I’ve applied to switch majors into something I enjoy, it won’t happen until next fall and it may not happen at all. I’ve moved to a new country and barely made any friends, so my social life is nonexistent. I think that’s where a lot of my “something missing” is, but I’m not exactly sure how to fix that. I have never felt like this, and I think it’s a lack of fulfillment, which I only get from blogging and working. Not school or friends or family or training or anything. It’s weird. I hope you sort it out soon, but I do love your posts like these that make me feel less alone.

  • Melissa

    Hannah- I legit love your blog but lately all your posts are just you wallowing in self pity. I totally get some of what you say on your posts, but these days before I even type your address in to my URL I just know your posts are going to a bit depressing. ‘Why do I feel like something is missing’ X reasons why being a blogger sucks’
    Sensing a theme here….
    I started following your blog becuase it was relateable for all the right reasons… your humour and fantastic writing and your posts about how to be happier…. This is why I follow your blog.
    Happy and content but something missing.

    Someone once told me that if you can’t be happy with what you have now then nothing will be good enough. Something to think about.

    • Ahhhhh I can’t help but disagree! I think they have a pensive perspective rather than negative, just like she is sorting something out in her head! It can be uplifting for other people who feel the same AND there’s still funny bits (i.e rolling around on the sofa’ xxxx

      • hannahgale9

        That’s exactly what they are – me sorting ideas and thoughts through in my head! Whereas I used to do this in a diary, I now just do it on here in the hope that SOMEONE, SOMEWHERE is having the same weird, chaotic thoughts and this helps them feel less alone. Your head always makes so much more sense when you’ve written all the weirdness out of it.

        Thank you for getting it Jess! x

  • Glad I’m not the only one feeling this way. I get up, go to work, come home, eat and go to sleep. Surely there’s more to life? I think we all want something more, and I’m trying to remind myself that I’m doing okay as I am. Hannah, you’re kind of solidifying the idea in my mind that freelancing or working on my blog all day would be awful for my emotional well being, and I hope you find a way to keep yourself sane! Great post, as always x

  • India

    Not to get too academic and philosophical, but I once studied a book by Frederic Beigbeder which is essentially all about consumerism/mass consumption. One of the famous quotes from within it is ‘nobody wants you to be happy, because happy people don’t spend’. Basically what I think it’s trying to say is that in the modern world we are kind of trained to always feel as though something is lacking, so that we keep searching for the elusive ‘key’ to our happiness. And the search is so often centred on spending and buying to try and fill the happiness void. Could the key be an expensive holiday? Is it a mulberry bag? Or Louboutin shoes? A new TV? Would a haircut make us feel better?

    In reality, I think the answer is a bit of a cliche – that happiness comes from within. You have already gone so far towards making yourself happier, by making choices which have led to you living with Chris and being self employed etc. But you’re right, you are probably still a few choices away from feeling properly happy. BUT I think we all have to accept that happiness is self defined, and kind of is what you make it. If you tell yourself you need hobbies to be happy, or a baby to be happy, or fit into size 12 jeans to be happy, and compare yourself to people with those things who you think LOOK happy, then happiness will always seem like this elusive thing (like a Mulberry handbag feels to me!!). So I genuinely believe that part of the battle is to make a choice that you want to be happy (and by that I mean your own kind of happy) and are willing to take positive steps to make that happen. Then you need to decide what your idea of happiness is, and what things you can actually do to make it happen.

    OK RANT OVER! xx

    • Wow loved this point of view! I for one need to take this on board.

    • Love this point of view too! X

    • Felicity

      Such a good point India and so well put!

      I am currently travelling for a year, because I thought it would make me happy…with mixed results.
      Sometimes you have to stop running around trying to find happiness and find it first in yourself.

  • Hi. Thank you for another insightful post.
    I don’t envy you at all, well I do a bit because your an amazing writer and your posts go viral, but I mean I don’t envy the whole blogging as a full time profession thing. For me I need routine, I need structure and my 9-5. Yes I love to hate on it and moan about it relentlessly but I couldn’t have it any other way. I think I would feel a bit lost. I’m shockingly terrible at self motivation, I would take full advantage of my sofa, Netflix and social media!! I realised all this during my maternity leave, as much as I loved being at home with my baby I needed to get back to my normality. Whist the lifestyle of a full time blogger looks pretty cool to onlookers, I can see the reality behind it isn’t so cool. Thank you for the honest perspective, there are lots of bloggers and vloggers displaying this perfect lifestyle for people to want to be envous of, it’s totally unrealistic and they are not the best role models in my opinion.

  • Emma

    I also love your blog, Hannah, like others who have commented. And even though this isn’t the kind of post I want to read for my ‘yeah, go get ’em’ boost, maybe for some people, a common feeling of loneliness, get-up-and-go, lack of motivation is helpful or an enjoyable read.

    But I stumbled across your blog one day at work last year. Things in my life just kept knocking me back, I felt trapped in my office job, lonely and rejected. I found your totally ballsy ’17 THINGS EVERY GIRL NEEDS TO REMEMBER AT ALL TIMES’ one day and it was amazing. I printed it out, making it really small, and stuck it onto my desk phone. It made me feel empowered. I definitely think I rounded that corner off the back of your post. Isn’t it fab that you did that?!

    I’m still in that office job. And whilst it isn’t the best job ever, for my child-less, dog-less, unmarried life so far, 9-5 gives me routine, ensures I wake and sleep well, eat well, get out of the office to walk, go to the gym on my way home. I think other commenters are right on the routine thing. Like, science says routine, like exercise everyday, is good for our psychologies. That’s my two cents.

    No way near the help you gave me last year, but hope this boosts you nevertheless. x

  • This is at least the second post of yours I’ve read where you’ve talked about this sort of thing and I definitely think you need to do something about it. When I was unemployed and all my friends and family were at work 9-5 I would just sit on the computer all day and be completely lonely and fed up. I think that even though you have the job you want, you don’t have a routine or regular contact with other human beings beside Chris and that’s not really very healthy.

    I think that you should either get a part-time job doing something just for the fun of it or perhaps volunteer at that cat shelter, even if you said that as a joke. If you don’t want to do that then maybe you should do some classes at the gym instead of working out on your own, or even go back to school part-time, just so you have that regular interaction with other people.

    From what you’ve said I really think it sounds like loneliness to me. I hope this comment hasn’t offended you.

    Chin up and all that xx

  • I’m a terrible one for not feeling content no matter how well my life is going so I know exactly what you mean. I have a job that I basically walked into after uni but i can’t help but feel like it’s not exactly what I want, but then in those times where I love my job I convince myself my relationship isn’t right or my friends secretly hate me or I’m spending too much money on eating out or I’m not going out and doing things enough. All this makes me think that it’s actually something else altogether that’s missing…but what the hell is that?!

    In the end I don’t think anyone really truly feels happy all the time because nobody would ever do anything if we did. Maybe that’s a pessimistic way of looking at things? I don’t have much advice to offer but this post has definitely made me think – so thanks for that at least!

    Bxx
    http://www.b-jolly.co.uk

  • might i suggest a hobby? i just started learning italian, which i really enjoy, and it would expand your social circle in your new hometown? http://thewanderlusthasgotme.blogspot.co.uk/2015/03/a-new-tattoo.html
    i’d do lots more travelling and fun stuff before you think about babies!

  • Ellen B

    I felt like this for a while, and then a friend suggested I go to church with her one Sunday. I went just to please her really, but 6 months later I finally feel that space has been filled and I’m happier in my life than I’ve ever been. I’m not saying this is the case for you, because it’s not for all, but you should think about it maybe 🙂

    Love your Blog!

    xx

  • Girlie, you need to chill out. Meditate, do yoga, borrow a dog & take it for a walk (try http://www.borrowmydoggy.com). I moved out of London & was freelancing a few yrs ago but the nervous buzz takes a while to wear off – I ended up with severe anxiety, breaking up with my fiance & rehoming the puppy. You have to be strong and build barriers around different areas of you life – including relaxing. I ended up taking mild herbal pills – not because they did much but they helped me notice & break the cycles. I dont even like fashion but I follow your post from Los Angeles cos you write well & funny & remind me of home! British people think we have to be “on the go” all the time – but we dont and should learn to relax more!
    Take care of yourself x

  • Emma

    “I can work as little or as much as I want – depending I guess on how exhausted I fancy being and how desperate I am to go on holidays and buy champagne and shop in Topshop (mildly desperate).”

    I read your blog often, and I used to enjoy it, But I have to say I think you will shortly be driving people away, you’re complaining, for want of a better word, about a life style that you have chosen, sorry that you’re bored at home all day, but you’re leading a life that is merely a dream and an unattainable luxury to most people. I like most people, get up at 6:30 everyday to go to work so I can afford my rent, food and whatever else, as that’s just part of life, while you’re moaning about trying to fill your days, with Netflix, trips to London and cooking.

    I think you’re losing touch with what are most people realities and I for one don’t want to read moany posts about something that shouldn’t be moaned about! If your bored, do something, only boring people get bored!

  • Gosh could this screen be a mirror?! I have the exact same feeling and feel surprisingly calmed by the fact that everything you mention is happening to you as well (not in a mean way, I don’t want to celebrate your obvious struggle but it’s comforting that it’s a struggle shared by all those commenting!). When I moved home, to Australia, from London 4 years ago I have struggled every single day to find that “thing”. I’ve built two homes, got married, and now just sit in limbo land trying to find something to make my heart truely happy. I hope that something finds you… it’s a pretty horrible (and disheartening) feeling to have that empty spot. I know it too well.

    Megan || http://www.ohheyblog.com

  • From personal experience, volunteering and side projects seem to be the way to go. Ideally something that you’ve never done before, and one that forces you to get some varied human interaction. There are always charities or churches that will welcome your time and any resources you have to offer, for example being able to drive, or cook.

  • Wow, hit the nail on the head for me with this post. I moved to Vietnam for work with my boyfriend last year and it has turned me into the worlds biggest over thinker. So much so that I pick apart my ‘perfect’ life of living overseas on the beach to turn it into lots of questions like ‘am I happy’. I can’t pin-point whether its my job I want to change, my location or my lifestyle? I have too much free time on my hands trying to think about what needs to change because its impossible to comprehend that things are 100% perfect.

  • Bea Castro

    Im the same person! Tho I don’t have a job because Im still a student, I always want to add more “little stones”. However, when I don’t get to do so, I overthink and we all knows what happens when we overthink. I do hope that one day we’ll find fulfillment <3

    BCfactor.blogspot.com

  • This post has touched me so much, because if I’m being completely honest I feel the same way – but I don’t feel I have either my big or small stones sorted… I’m a complete mish-mash! Frantically trying to figure myself out.

  • Ah I totally agree with this SO SO much. I went freelance full-time nearly three years ago. I absolutely love the lack of early alarms (I’m not a morning person), the fact that I don’t have to deal with public transport, the way that I save SOOO much money on not having to buy lunch every day, and the fact that I don’t have any office politics or drama to deal with. I also love the fact that my boyfriend is freelance too, so we get to work from anywhere we want: just now we’re living in a dreamy apartment in Berlin.

    Like you I feel a bit unfulfilled and I’m wondering if it’s because I don’t really have any hobbies that involve going out and socialising, combined with the fact that I haven’t made any proper friends in the city (we tend to move around every few months). My friends are all back home in Edinburgh so I only get to see them a few times a year. It’s a lonely life this freelance thing. Hopefully we’ll both figure it out!

    xx

  • Anon

    Hannah, your wallowing in self pity is getting old. I also find it mildly amusing that you constantly say you have so much free time and feel bored and restless, when your posts always contain spelling/grammatical errors and you can’t even be bothered to port them until ten or eleven am. You’re a full time blogger, right? Scheduling your posts to go out first thing on the morning is one of many basic tasks that seem to escape you. Get it together, act more professional and stop whining/alienating readers.

  • Emily

    Hannah, I’ve being following your posts now for a while and I’ve come to the conclusion that you are my long lost twin. Everything you write, is describing me and my life down to a T. I’ve recently moved 80 miles from my home town, with my Chris and I feel exactly the same way as you. There’s something missing something that my heart is aching for but I just don’t know what. I also spend 90% of my time at home alone and that really gets me down. Having no one there to talk to or go for coffee with, well it sucks. No amount of Sims 3 playing will ever make me content during the day, but my life now is better than it was living with parents… I need to keep soul searching but that is proving difficult when I don’t know where to look.
    Take care,
    Emily xx

    • hannahgale9

      This is so helpful for me to read. Sometimes I feel like I’m ungrateful for everything I have, and it’s not that I’m NOT happy, but there’s just something missing. In fact I’m mega happy but it’s more to do with a contentness in my belly. Let’s hope we find it! x

  • em

    Really great post and I think people all go through this lovely.

    http://www.thewonderlanders.com

  • I enjoy reading your posts immensely, but lately you seem down and lacking a routine where you interact with people outside of your bubble.

    I think really you need a hobby or to do some volunteering where you have to commit to it on a regular basis so you can take your mind in a different direction and think about something other. Part of it for me is feeling part of the bigger picture in your community.

    I’d personally look into something like a local college course or volunteer for something close to your heart. You moved to a new place and you work alone and it would do you so much good to meet new people where you live and make friends.

  • Is it where you live? Would you feel this way if everything was the same but you lived in London? You could go out to meetings, go to PR events, meet friends for lunch and have a bit more variety in your day. That’s what I’ve perceived from this post.

    In regards to the people saying you’re moaning: ignore it. Just because you have a really great flexible career doesn’t mean you have to love it all of the time. I get one day off a week and that day is the most miserable out of all seven for me. I get the least done and I just waste the whole day because there is no structure to it. I don’t have to get up and dressed (so therefore I don’t). When I come home from work I get that “ahhhhh” feeling because I’m home and the day is done, but you don’t get that feeling because you’re home is your workplace. I totally get it, and I often wish I could blog full time but when I actually think about it, I’d be rubbish because I know myself and I need deadlines and pressure to do things! I’m a lazy cow, essentially. Haha.

    Anway, I love your blog. It’s like an open diary and I appreciate that. I’m sick of the sugar coating every other blogger provides in large doses each day. It’s nice to read a blog that isn’t all rosy and fake 100% of the time.

    Keep being you. You’re pretty great.

  • Well I can relate to this, I went full time self-employed about a year and a half about, and after a few months I wrote a beefy blog post about feeling lonely, isolated and little lost. The post actually gave me a bit of focus, realising that this is just the way it’s got to be, if you do what we (looks like we do similar things maybe) in a smaller town in England. I still feel like there’s things missing, but maybe it will never be complete, unless you land some swanky big time contract which pays you for watching Netflix. I found your blog via Kristable’s tweet btw.

    Buckets & Spades

    • hannahgale9

      it’s so interesting to hear that it’s not just me, that is IS just this freelance life. I mean don’t get me wrong, I’d never go back to working for someone else, but it can be a weird old time left alone with your own brain for company most of the time! Without anyone else around during the day.

  • J

    Hi Hannah,

    I’m a relatively new reader of your blog and I really enjoy it because I can relate to a lot of what you’re talking about, and you have a great honest and upfront writing style. As for you feeling like there’s something missing in your life, a lot of people feel like this from time to time. When I graduated from uni a couple of years ago and spent the summer unemployed, I felt completely lost and down because I had a lot of time to myself which I don’t think is very healthy.

    Clearly you do something you really enjoy for a living and are very grateful to have the freedom to work for yourself, which is awesome. Like a lot of others who have commented, I would recommend taking up a new hobby (or picking up an old one you haven’t done for a while) so that you can meet new people and get yourself out and about a bit more. You’re bound to feel better and more fulfilled 🙂 I also think it’s great that you’re getting to work in London at the moment as that breaks up your routine a little!

    Anyway, really like the blog posts and the vlogs too! Keep up the good work 🙂

  • Kate

    You know, I just think this is a general feeling amongst us all in our 20’s. Wondering where we are going, what we are doing. I think about it daily.

    I’m currently unemployed after coming out a horrendous job, I was un happy in the horrible job with no time to myself, now i’m looking for something new I am becoming depressed because I cant find anything new and I have too much time.. I guess no matter what situation we are in there is going to feel like there is something missing. your 20’s for me so far has been worse than my teens, its so confusing. Your suppose to be out enjoying yourself, partying and on the other hand your suppose to be focusing on your job and your life..its two opposites that we are expected to do.

  • I TOTALLY know how you feel….I recently went from a super stressful, panic-inducing job with zero work-life balance to a new, wonderfully happy job with a fabulous work-life balance. At first it was ammmmmmazing to not have massive blue bags under my eyes and to not have piles of dishes constantly stacked but now I definitely am feeling a “gap”. Now my new challenge is to find something to fill my life with something worthwhile!

  • What you need is to make friends with me because I am a fellow lifestyle blogger also living in Ipswich with a non-existant social life and I would love to meet up for a coffee and chat about cats and homewares! I’ve sent you an email xo

    • lynn

      Yes! Hannah needs to do that,


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